Haven’t been on tumblr for awhile so what the hey? Man these past first few weeks of fall quarter have flew by, winter break is literally like a month away. I can’t help but think where will I end up, who will I become 5 to 10 years from now. I find that here…down here…down in So-Cal, I have alot of time to reflect and think about what I should do, who I want to be. The scary thing is, I still am not 100% sure what to do.
I feel like I have fallen behind everyone like the last horse out of the gate being whipped by the jockey to “run, run faster…” and yet I walk. Though I am uncertain, I know I will figure this out. Hopefully soon.
Had a pretty chill trip down to SOcal. Sis asked me to drive her to her orientation for UCSB, so i said yes. Man sleeping in a car for 2 days is not as awesome as you would think lol.
Pretty much chilled with Mark and my other sis while we waited for Vi to finish her orientation. Visited the Hollywood Sign thing. Pretty awesome. Went to Venice Beach where me and Mark got approached by a whole bunch of “underground artists” one after another asking us to listen to their city HAHAA. My ears were tired of music after that.
Oh, btw on our way home, this dude in a civic wanted to race us? LOL. Mark and I were cracking up cause this dude was serious. So we were like wth, might as well. So i floored it going pretty fast hitting 100s. Took awhile for this dude to catch up but he eventually did LOL. He thought he was badass after beating 4 people riding in a RAV4 full of luggage and what not. Man that dude was funny.
Pretty much sums up my last week.
Man….what are boring saturday. Yeh.. i kno its sunday now but i feel like i wasted a saturday being off work. YUP….dude i find myself not being able to sleep. Got alot on my mind i guess.
I want to just get in my car and drive, doesnt matter where. I was on FB earlier and I saw one of my friend’s status messages that read: “When I really thought about what i really wanted in life, my mind went blank.” Well, at least I think thats how she said it. Yup, honestly my mind goes blank when i try to think of what i want to do.
So many possibilities and so many pathways, but i must choose one.
YUP…Dude….that’s what keeping me up and out of bed.
As i am typing this…something bad has just happened. My heart was racing, pumpimg, thumping out of control. No lie.
Bullcrap man. I was getting ready to sleep when like 15 minutes ago, in front of my house. I look outside and see 2 dudes lingering in front of my house. Then what do I hear? My car trying to start. I look out my window and I say to my self, “WTF?!”
I go to check it out and shit….there was a dude in my car trying to steal it. SHIT man… I grab my golf club and open the garage. I see this dudes face and his ass gets out of the car and takes off. DAYM man…this is the 3rd time someone has tried to steal my car right in front of my house. WTF man….
Maybe i shouldve recorded those dudes in the act but in the heat of the moment i just rushed out there. To tell you the truth, I was f****** scared. UGH!! I am so f***** mad right now I cant even sleep.
Man…so far life hasn’t been what I expected it to be. Ever since i became an alumni of Valley High…it feels different to come back. All those memories of me just hanging out with the friends by the benches and eating lunch in Mr. Hardwickes’ classroom.
But when I think about it, what has really happened since then. I find myself stuck at MCD, not that it is a bad thing, but it feels like I’m overworking myself. Missing out on things to do.
Gotta make this summer productive. I want to go see places and experience new memories with the friends.
DUDE…. it’s how life is, am I right?
LOL I’m actually starting to use tumblr more now. Suprising I know. Music. It’s awesome. Even better when “you” are the one producing it. That’s how I feel when singing with the bros and playing my guitar.
One of these nights guyz….we are going to be big yo! o.O
I feel so lost…so confused and unaware of the things happening. I just got home from work and to my suprise I discover something. I don’t want to say but I feel like i can’t even help.
As I read the comments and status updates…I feel even more curious about the situation, wondering what can I do to help. Yet I am afraid to ask why? how? what? is going on.
I’m here for you BROS. That simple.
I sit here in my living room. Just got home from late night shift at work. I think to myself: is this it? I mean…there are times I feel like I want to just take a long drive on the road with no destinations, with night air flowing through the windows of my car as the music flows out of the speakers. There are days that I realize….”man…. I got to change the way things are…” But I end up not doing it.
I don’t know why……… I don’t know how…..But one thing is certain….in the end I will make something of myself.
School is finally coming up for me…Jan. 19th. My life is about to hit a tough neverending road. Full time schooling and Work. It explains itself. But I guess it’s all worth it. Being able to be close with friends and family makes it alot easier on me. I don’t know…its not like me to even use tumblr because honestly I never blog but I guess I just felt like relieving some things off my mind.
Yep…that’s how it is….for now… o.O
HAHAHA yeh its been awhile since I even blogged about anything. Man….I guess I will start again? But yup, life has been what it is a loooooonnnngggggggggg confusing path.
So far… for me it just has been a time of uncertainty and laziness o.O But hey…everyday is a new day that comes with nights full of stars and beautiful sounds of the night. I’m discovering how awesome the guitar is. One day I hope I can play as well as my dad haha.
ONE BIG UP: Friends are back yo! Can’t wait to go chill and experience life together again for the time they are here. Miss those days.
“Everyday is a new day that comes with nights full of stars….” <—— that sounds so koool xD came off the top of my head.
